Miracles and Goodbyes

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It's hard for me to say goodbye. I've never been good at it. I don't like it when friendships end. I don't like it when television shows or movies end. I sobbed when I finished all of Suite Life on Disney (Zack & Cody & On Deck). I hate endings. Here I am in Romania, I've loved being in Europe and seeing new things. I've made new friends and learned new things. I am still learning new things! I learn new pieces of Romanian language almost everyday. Goodbyes are hard though, and here I will be in July, back in America and saying "Goodbye" (or La Revedere! in Romanian). Would I love to stay? Yes, I would. To be here one more year, enjoying the lifestyle and changes, the evolving self, and my work. To say I'm blessed to be doing a Fulbright in itself is amazing, but to do a 2nd year, yes, I would love it. There are obstacles in the way though. A big one is that I have put applications for things back in America, and none of them would allow a first-year student in their program to do it remotely in Europe for the first year. It's just not a thing. On top of it, I know other areas of my life would suffer if I stayed. Even though I know these things, it doesn't make saying "goodbye" any easier. I have love for Romania and for America. It's not only about the goodbyes or the endings, but I'm also praying to God for miracles before the endings. Before I leave Romania, God, give me these miracles I am seeking. I know that with faith, God is going to show me the way. Miracles don't have to be one option. People focus so much on one thing they see as a miracle, but forget that for every closed door - a window could be opening. I'm not asking for a specific thing. I am asking for God to show me the way and I'm asking for a few miracles before I leave Romania and head back to America, and whatever God shows me, I will see the miracle before me. Goodbyes are hard, but perhaps God will bring these miracles for a happy new beginning. We'll see.